Still-shot from my degree show film ‘It Wasn’t Meant to be Like This (It Was Meant to be Like This)’
I changed elements of the piece slightly to improve its aesthetic. Although I was going to use a white background, I realised that the black background would actually suit it better as I begin to blend into the background. The black background also emphasised the lard far more.
During the piece, I became far more emotional than I ever have before, and I think this was due to the fact that the audience were not present for the performance for the first time. This allowed me to focus far more on my internal state, which is why I became so upset. When I found myself becoming over emotional, I fought hard to take myself back to my breath, trying to put my emotion into the lard rather than showing it on my face.
I am now keen to project the piece large for the degree show, as this will reintroduce the audience, and allow them to experience those moments with me.
This film piece will be exhibited in full at The Liverpool John Moores University Degree Show opening 26th May – 9th June 2017.